Sunday, March 18, 2012

feel like blogging again ....

Ytd went to visit shirlene's ahma ... dunno why the conversation between shirlene and her ahma made me think of my grandma ....

my grandma passed away last december, we cant make it in time to talk to her for the last time ..

after visiting sl ahma ... i was thinking like when my grandma is sick ... where were i ?

i was nt even there to take care her or even visit her!!

i know that studying and working jus an excuses for us nt to go back to grandma hse ....

now i then realise is already too late le ... she was already gone ....

i still can rmb the scene when the coffin is going to close ... my grandpa was standing beside the coffin looking at her, talking to her for the last time .. it was so heart aching

when the coffin is closed and seal ... the cries from my mum and aunt made me teared too ...

even till now when i think of the scene, my tears will start to drops again ...

on the way to the graveyard... my tears cant stop dropping ...

tis is the first time that i really really realise ... time doesnt wait for anyone of us ... i must really treasure the time we had for the family and friends


alothough i cant really rmb when i young how u take care of me .... but i think u will always be inside my heart ....

thank you for taking care of me ...

i'm the 1st granddaughter in the hse .... i believe the moment when i'm born, you are very very happy and excited...

thank you for doting on me ...

although i realise that i doesnt really treasure it a lot when u r still thr ...sorry ...

thank you for the care and concern u gave ....

everytime will think of bringing my favorite food to singapore when daddy n mummy go back ...

thank you for every thing that u have done ...

for now i will treasure the family time that i can spend with my family, and take good care of mummy too ...

i promise ....

Sunday, July 17, 2011

seems like a lot of things change in a short period of time.
jus feel tt everything was diff from the days we have in the poly.
no more going to scc, made me feel tt there is something tt are left out in the life
even if go back, the feeling is different le oso.
somehow i really miss the time tt i was busy with ovb n scc tgt.
somehow i miss the outing tt we all had, even though is jus pinic, which feel very boring, but i like when all of us come to meet tgt.
but as the time fly by, each n everyone of us getting more busy. it is quite hard to gather tgt for outing or slacking.
somehow i feel it is nt the same anymore.
i don like tis kind of changes.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Just suddenly feel like to blog again.

May be it jus tt i'm too free. =/

But no matter what i think nobody is reading my blog le ba. Dead for so long le.

quite a lot of thing happen for this few months.

1. I quited my childcare job. Cos i wanted to try more thing explore more. But i miss the children there. =( I miss the interaction with them.

2. Meet up with the animals to celebrate x'mas. <3>

3. Celebrated my 21st bday! Was happy that u all can come down and love the gifts tt u all gave!

4. Went to SCC to help out with open house. But end up we go shopping at far east with naz, haz, ahken, jacq, shirlene, py.

5. Meet up to celebrate wanyan bday! Having fun tt day. =)

6. Meet up with an quan gan, to help him with his project videoing. Super long never see him and ziqin le! Having fun while videoing, although i feel weird.

7. Went for Jay Chou Green Hornet Press Conference. <3<3<3

8. Got my 2nd job. Production Assistant cum Assistant producer @ mediacorp. Hope i can cope with this job. Cos my parent don like me to be in this line. So i must prove to them tt i can!

9. Meet up to celebrate ahken "32" bday! And all off us bought a very big snoopy for him! having fun tt day oso.

10. Meet up for CNY with SCC! having fun walking ard, taking photo, talking and slacking. Love the time spent with them.

I'm gonna start work on wed le. i think aft start to work i will have lesser time to spent with all my friends le.

Actually i hope to meet them before i start work. but they seems to be so busy, while i'm so free!

Haiz, whenever seeing them like so occupied with their friends, school, ccas..... i'm so envy.

No reason, but yeah.

Is like this is the 3rd time tt i kena pang seh. =(

Friday, November 5, 2010

hmmmm ... thinking thinking thinking ...!

after thinking for so many days ... i still cant get an answer ...

i know doing wad i like is de most important thing ....

for now i'm quite okay with the work in childcare ... but thinking that i'm now only 21yrs old ...

i don want to be tie down so early ...

childcare teacher is a good job if i wanna settle myself down .... but now is too early le....

imagine tt i will be stuck in this line for the rest of my life ... is like a bit boring and lack of excitement ... isnt it ?

it is like my social circle would be very small and limited ...

my life will be like a routine ????

but beside this wad job can i do ??

my dad ask me to go for police ... ya this look quite fun n interesting .... but can i ???

or i can jus don care ...n go ahead n try ....????

i don know leh ... very fan n luan ... ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

actually i don like keep changing my environment ... this will make me feel uncomfortable ....

i will take a long time to adapt to de environment tt i need to work at ....

but i think i really need to think carefully now .... if nt .. fews years later .. i want to try more jobs is llike already too late le .... and wasted a lot of time ... haiz ...

now i feels like staying at my own comfort zone .... don talk to anybody .. don go to anywhere ....



nice song .. tt i addicted to recenlty ... =]

i like the lyrics ...

i now feels like writing song ... but no inspirations ....

Monday, November 1, 2010

sian~

i'm like stuck in no where ... where by my qualifiaction now like i cant go anywhere ...

no more diploma course for me ... cos i nv bond with my company ... WTH!

wad company is tt .. jus because i don wan to bond ... den they are nt going to let me study ...!!!

the bond is like 6 yr in tt company los .... 6 yrs is like too long le lor ... and somemore my pay is so low ...

i might as well go study NIE ... to teach pri sch ... like this even better ...

now .. i have to re-think n re-plan my future le ...

haiz .... i really dono wad to do los ...

thinking to change to teach pri sch ... but this was like waste of my time le ...

but beside teacher ... wad can i do ????

my dad keep ask me go find police as a job ...

but i think this job like don suit me ... although i like to watch those police drama a lot ....

ahhhhhhhhh ..... dono ....

haiz .....!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

bored ~~ i always want to go out on weekend but seems like everyone is busy ... =(

today is halloween .... is a pity that i cant go for the night safari for the halloween thing .... haiz ... next time ba ....

i still can rmb tt last year halloween ... wad we do in OVB ....

we like some weird ppl like tt ... wearing weird weird de costume ... walking ard the school ...

but tt period of time is de most fun .. i think ... =)

I really miss de time in school ....

Now i'm going to study again ... but i think the feeling will be different le ba ...

i will be attending diploma in early childhood care and education in teaching ... on every tue thur and sat ....

which means that my sat are gone ....

which also means that i cant go scc that often le ... haiz =(

I'm feel like i like wasting my 3 yrs in study in chinese studies... hahas ... cos in the end i end up going to study diploma again after i graduate .... den at tt time i shld jus choos early childhood to study can le mah ....

now like going one big round den back to square ...

but i nv regret ... heee ...

and in the end .... i had make a decision is that i wont bond with my company ....

cos at the start i think that the course fees will be quite ex .... and if i bond with the company ... den i will not need to fork out any money ....

but the prob is .. i need to bond 6 years in the company .. which was quite long ....

but in the end i found out that de course fees after subsidy by the SDF ... it was quite reasonalbe whereby i can afford ....

but now ... all my saving for 5mths are gone .... T_T ...

it is quite hard to save till 4 digit .... but now need to start all over again le ... haiz ... !

this is one of my favourite student!

hahas ... her name is En En !

but she already withdraw from sch ....

she is really cute ... and she can talk very well ...

really enjoy talking to her lots ....

the class without her will definetly have lesser fun ...

hope that she will come back next year ba ....

*take care arh*

Monday, October 25, 2010

Change my blogskin ... i lazy to do one myself .... so i use de customise one .... =)

quite nice ... i quite like it .....

and change de blog song ... to 8月30 by derrick ho ....

it is compose by mark .... very nice ... i keep listening to it again n again ... hahas =)

i feel like wactching a lot of movies .....!!!

especially de horror movies .... "Child's eyes" ... but but but .... haiz ... =/

*i nv angry with u .... *

Sunday, October 24, 2010

sudd have the urge to blog ....

i think my blog going to rot le ....
hahas ... anyway i'm now busy with work ....
working in childcare is quite fun .... at least when i face de children i can be myself ...
no need to think much .... jus enjoy playing with them .... =)
they are so adorable .... hahas ...
this is one of the pic tt i took during work .... hahas ...
i like this pic alot .... =)

i'm going to start my course very soon .... i guess i will have lesser time to enjoy myself .... cos my sat gone .... i need to go study ... =(

and i cant go scc often le .... =(

i realise working life is nv better than schooling life ..... now i miss the times tt i going to school ....

i miss the time tt how i enjoy in school .... slacking in school ... rushing work in school til late night ... =(

i really really miss it ... miss my friends ... miss the feeling of we gather together and doing nth ...

miss the food in sch .... miss how we use to chit chat all day long ....

miss how busy it is when i'm in OVB.... while doing scc stuff in the same time ...

miss how warming it is when i'm in SCC ...

miss how we complain tt we are sick of KAP ...

but now all this things like happen very very very long long long ago ....

where by i don feel like this now ....

i feel like i'm very far away from all my friends ....

i don feel easy in scc anymore ...

all the things change .... i cant adapt to it ....

i feel like i'm very extra ....

i feel like i'm alone .... =(

may be is the song tt i listening now make me think too much ba ....





i like this song a lot ..... when i 1st listen to it .... i have been repeat it over and over again .... =)

will try to blog often .... =)